You see, my 20 years of smoking cost me my health, finances, businesses, time, family, relationships, spiritually, and hurt countless other areas of my life. 20 years of a pack-a-day - or more. I screwed up.
I can never get that time back. For more than half of my life, smoking was just who I was. It was how I defined myself: A classic closet smoker that smoked at least a pack a day.
And honestly, I didn't have much of a choice because cigarettes literally controlled my life... my entire life.
When I finally quit smoking in July 2014, it wasn't because I found some deeply seeded motivation to quit smoking. Nor was I inspired by anything that I had seen, heard, or read.
I had honestly accepted that smoking cigarettes was just a part of me that would never go away, no matter how many times I told my friends and family that I would quit... someday.
Previous attempts to quit lead to nothing but frustration with the process, myself, and I believed that I was a happier more fulfilled person because of cigarettes. Can you relate?
In July, 2014, I had a life-defining moment one evening that will be burned into my memory for as long as I live. Over the course of two days, while smoking a cigarette (of course) two simple questions about smoking appeared to me completely out of the blue that changed my life forever.
I honestly have no idea where these questions came from or why/how they popped into my head. I certainly was not motivated, inspired, or even wanted to quit smoking.
It wasn't even on my mind. I was a happy smoker and I loved my secret smoking life as a closet smoker.
Of course, I knew I "should" stop smoking, like every long-time smoker, but rarely ever has a smoker stopped smoking because they should. And not many smokers have been successful quitting because they were motivated or inspired to quit. It takes something much, much deeper for most people to quit for good.
The two questions that came to me in July 2014, and the life-altering events that followed, led me down a path of quitting smoking forever.
The process was far easier than any smoker could comprehend unless they go through it themselves.
In fact, it was almost too easy, believe it or not. I was able to quit smoking after 20 years in just one day. I honestly had a hard time believing that I had become a non-smoker for quite some time. But as time pressed on, I finally realized that I was truly 100% finished with cigarettes.
And before I knew it, I finally felt what true freedom feels like.